When I signed my contract back in June, it said that while my start date was July 19, my first paycheck would not arrive until August 31. While I found that annoying, I knew that if I lived very carefully during those six weeks, I woud be okay waiting that long.
That being said, I still worried about money, especially about what would happen if some emergency came up during that time. I also really want the apartment to start looking a little better, since it’s going to be my home at least until I finish paying back my parents for grad school (unless I get married before that…). I wasn’t letting myself buy curtains or throw rugs until after payday.
It wasn’t a huge deal, but it consumed my thoughts more than I wanted it to.
Yesterday I went to school for a couple hours after my new employee orientation. Waiting in my mailbox was my first paycheck. I was so surprised my eyes filled with tears. It was like a weight lifted off my shoulders.
God is so good.
I hesitate to say that about this. God is so good even if I don’t have a job. Even if I have nothing to eat. I know that, and I’m not trying to say that God wants us to have curtains or gym memberships. He has given me abundantly more than I could ever need. I acknowledge this, and I am so glad to finally be in a position to care for others financially. But at the same time, this whole move and new job has been a trying experience for me. This early check just served as another sign that He is with me. He sees me, He knows me, and He cares.